Monday, 21 January 2013

We knew this would come, we knew it all along

How did it, come so fast?

I'm leaving Singapore in exactly a month's time.. Kinda sad, yeah but then again, I think it's also a good thing. I've always loved living in Australia, there are so many things that I enjoy. I miss my adorable 4 year old nephew (who is obsessed with trains and water parks!) and baby niece. I miss driving around the countryside, visiting wineries, mountains, hot springs. There's loads more to do over there (I don't really like hitting the malls) that I really enjoy. I can't wait try out surfing, skiing, skydiving, paint ball, trekking and all sorts of adventure sports over there. Well, it's not like you can't do it here, in Asia, but with the weather and high humidity, it just feels different and a whole lot more enjoyable when you do it in a cool climate.

Imagine having a picnic, in the sun, without having to worry about sweating..

Another thing I love about Aussie, well, Melbourne in particular is the really cool bohemian cafe and arts scene. There are loads of really good European restaurants around, and nice little quaint cafes where you can sit and relax and people watch, and the buzzing arts scene is crazy. Street performers who are so talented you just can't help but stop and watch, and admire. The thing is, they are so passionate about what they do, it's infectious. Another thing is that you can sense their motivations, they don't particularly care about whether or not you drop a coin in their box to show your appreciation, they just want to perform and see the smile on people's faces.

I kinda wish Singapore would have a friendlier culture :( Like in Melbourne, I can think of countless occasions over there when I was walking down the street, just minding my own business, and old ladies would stop by and want to strike up a conversation with me. They genuinely want to say Hi and find out how I am doing. It just warms my heart and I love that culture. In Singapore we get so busy sometimes we forget how to love. It gets so crowded and uncomfortable and all that we just want to be alone, be detached from it all, I'm guilty of it as well :(

But yeah it is a bummer to leave Singapore behind as well. I honestly don't know what I'd do without my favourite prata.. Sigh, chicken rice... Curry rice... So many so many... Thank god I've learnt how to cook so it probably won't  be so bad.

I will most definitely miss acting, working, all the wonderful opportunities Singapore has provided me. I will miss my Joshies, who have showered me with so much love and affection that it is impossible not to love them as well. My dear Joshies, who have spent countless hours on different projects to bring a smile in my heart. I will never forget you. And fret not, I will be back soon, hopefully this coming year, with another project in the works, you'll be seeing a lot more of me.
I Promise.

Wednesday, 2 January 2013

Take a look at me now.

I think it's important for everyone to take some time to reflect upon their lives every once in awhile, and reflect on themselves. Sometimes it's the superficial stuff that you take note of, other times it's a life changing experience that has really impacted you. For myself, the most eventful thing that has happened to me was really, Ah Boys To Men. While this experience has solidified my belief that this is the career path that I wish to embark on, it has also changed my life in ways I could never imagine.


I am so grateful for the chance I have been blessed with, and as I take time to reflect upon this great opportunity, I also wanna reflect upon my performance in the movie. Now, I've caught Ah Boys To Men Part 1, at least 10 times, with all the promotions going on, and I pretty much have memorized the movie from start to finish. I am thankful that most publications have gone easy on my performance, and the rest of the cast. Thankfully, I have not read many bad reviews about my acting so far, HOWEVER, I personally am unhappy at how I've done in most of my scenes..

There are loads of times where I look at the big screen and see mistakes, or places where I could have done something different, some action or reaction which would have been more appropriate but didn't think of at that time.. So yeah honestly I wish I was a better actor, but I know that I really gave it my best shot. Like everyday going to work, no matter how I was feeling, I gave it my all, pushed myself to my bloody limit. Obviously, this is my first feature film, and I'm not as good or as experienced as some of the other actors around. BUT I AM SO DETERMINED! I CAN ONLY GET BETTER FROM HERE! And I'm super thankful for people who support me, and the movie. They really give me loads of moral support and I KNOW I CAN GET BETTER! GRRRR, I can't wait for more opportunities to hone my craft and get better, and SHOW PEOPLE I WILL IMPROVE!

Hehe actually I'm kinda happy at certain scenes in the movie, like when I was talking about winning QiuQiu back in the bunk, with IPMan and Lobang King, I gave a damn psycho look! And when I visited my dad in the hospital. I think I did pretty good, so I'm pleased with that, BUT C'MON! I KNOW I CAN GET BETTER!!!

Even though I am going away to study in Aussieland in Feb, I may be getting more opportunities to act in movies this coming year (hehe not gonna let the cat out of the bag now!). I'm so looking forward to 2013, my lucky number 13!

 2012 was great, but I can't wait to kick on in 2013, so BRING IT!